SMACK. I guess I was in the middle of a midlife crisis. I never thought I was close to the midlife thing (being in my 20's still...then), but I realized that, indeed I had this issue. For years I was told I could achieve anything, and I mistakenly thought it meant I would achieve something, anything. I had achieved very little by the worlds standards....a bachelors degree and a year of working in the auto industry wasn't something to shout from the rooftops. The realization that I was very average was a hard pill to swallow.
And yet, I had chosen the better part. I chose family over career, love over money, poopy diapers over any worldly recognition. I knew and know, that it was the right choice for me. Yet, there was still a little regret over what might have been. Maybe I wouldn't have become anything, had I chosen different. Maybe, I really am average.
Over the course of a week, I mulled that idea over. I am average. I am not special.
Then my spirit kicked back. So, what? What if I am average, I can still put myself out there? What if I tried to do something more? Why limit myself with my own averageness?
I came up with a hair brained idea to make my own quilt patterns. Just to see if anyone was interested in the work I do. I did more research, and thought maybe there could be a book. After a year of designing, shopping, piecing, quilting, and writing....I submitted my ideas to Martingale Publishing. All that work over the year was invigorating, it gave me energy and excitement. I felt accomplished just submitting my proposal.
A month later, I got a call from Martingale, saying they wanted to publish my book. My spirit lifted. All the effort, all the time, love, and energy I had spent over the years of quilting was about to pay off.
Now, a year later, the book is going to be released in the next couple weeks. Years of work, loads of love, plenty of sweat, and a little blood went into this venture. Through it all I realized a few great lessons:
Accomplishing something takes effort and risk.
Average people can do unique things.
Joy comes in the journey, not in the destination.
Be creative today!